月度归档:2012年12月

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落雪前的晴天,又一個清冷的下午,踏上向著留下的車,目的地是一個遙遠而熟悉的地方。陰沉的天色並不能擋住未來的希望,順暢的路況,溫和的天氣,平靜的河港,不知不覺,經過一塊塊曾經熟悉的站牌,一個個曾經熟悉的小鎮的路口,終點,就已在前方的群山中。今天的匯演,讓很多久別了這個學校的人,回到了小和山,回到了留下。而我,既可說是來到,也可說是回到了這裡,曾經來過的熟悉的地方。
錯落的校園,如畫如詩,行走其中,有一種莫名的熟悉感。雖然我注定不曾經是,以後也不可能是這個學校中的一員,但是這裡的同學將我當成了其中的一員;雖然我不屬於這個學校,但是我屬於這裡的這群人。我在永遠的逼近這裡,而當我和這裡的人容爲一體,也就無所謂屬不屬於這個學校,因爲學校永遠只是一種屬性,而且是一種沒有限制意義的屬性,它不是障礙,也不是界線;距離,在意它,它便存在;不在意它,螻蟻和星系相對於宇宙,便永遠是同樣的零。
和上次來的時候不同,公告欄上的名單,多了幾個名字,是被預錄取的同學。一個個熟悉的名字跳入眼簾,看見的是一個個實現的夢想,新的希望。也許你們是實現希望的這群人,也許你們就是希望。都是沒有去過的地方,但是這一天,我選擇的地點是圖書館。也許那也可以被戲謔的稱爲月牙樓。同樣是坡道,同樣的樓房,其實這不僅僅是一個像大學的高中,更像的是浙大附中和浙大的結合,而且還混合了更多自由的精神。浙大附中的坡道,浙大的建築,加上自由的筋骨,可能就是這美麗的地方。每當提起學校將來的命運,總會有淡淡的悲傷。但只要有杭外人,杭外就會存在,因爲杭外不僅存在於小和山下,杭外人在那裡,杭外就在那裡。我作為一個杭外之外的人,祝福這所學校的命運和未來,仍將充滿希冀和活力。
在圖書館,只是安靜地看書,不知不覺,已經是六點鍾。新年匯演的帷幕馬上要拉開,雖然今年高三來看演出的人不多,但是我們坐到了一起,並不顯得寂寞。即使是我,也有很多認識的人,很多很好的朋友在身邊,一點也不覺得是在外校,一點也不覺得孤單。當燈光暗下,舞臺的大幕還沒有拉開,臺下點點的光,如滿天的繁星。燈光亮起,繁星失去了它的顔色,而“二零一一三年”的演出,也在這時,開始了。
“不管世界多寬廣,人群熙熙攘攘,我要站到最中央。”這個夜晚,從這裡開始。
也許節目已經不完全能夠記得,午安,鏡中人,還有被我們從側面看穿的魔術,初一初二的同學身上,看見的是朝氣和希望。我熟悉卻不會講的紹興話,我熟悉卻不會講的杭州話,動聽而悅耳。
我的記憶不會歸零,即使是很傷心的回憶,我也不忍心讓它消失,因爲它們告訴我,我曾經虧欠過別人很多,我應該珍惜現在,珍惜將來的一切。我在經受多深的痛苦,別人就在經受相等甚至更深的痛苦。失憶不是療傷的良藥,而是導致痛苦和傷害再三出現的毒葯。杭外的人是重情義的人,重情義的人,絕不會選擇忘記,只會選擇放下。
忽然間想起了以前的事情,“給自己一個夢想,給學習一個理由”,這是你之前說過的話。現在,你已經離夢想很近了,無論何方,都光明和希望。
夢想在飛翔,風在飄揚。也許中途很多人改變了自己的夢想,其實這沒關係,因爲,夢想是甚麽並不重要,重要的是它帶給你的動力。如果夢想最終達成,過程無論如何,都是相同的。
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“不管世界多寬廣,人群來來往往,我的舞臺最風光。當燈光打在臉上,請為我鼓掌。”這個夜晚,不會就此結束,十位歌手的歌聲繞梁不止,希望顛撲不滅,就像今天窗外紛紛揚揚的雪,在路燈下化爲點點的光,化爲凝固的潔白。

A Night in Hangzhou FLS

Last night I went to Hangzhou Foreign Language School to see a new years’ concert. I arrived at three thirty. Before the others came, I waited them in the school library. I also looked at the pages of notice on the school wall. I saw somebody’s name on them. I was glad to see the more and more of my friends came to the universities that they loved.
I ate dinner in their restaurant. I deemed it was much better than which in Hangzhou No.2 High School. I study with Livia in library until six o’clock. Because of the approving test, she should study in classroom during the evening. So I went with my classmates to see the performance.
The concert started with a chorus. And what impressed me most is the play Reset Your Memory To Zero. Some of my classmates said that the concert isn’t as successful as the one played on last year end, but I think it is really a treasure.
This day, I met the person I what to meet, but because of some affairs, Taya didn’t come last night. I think she is really busy, don’t like me, can do useless things all day. New year is coming, and every thing becomes better. There is a future that full of wills and challenges.
After the concert, we went to somewhere to have snack. We came back to ZJU at midnight with something upset, but more thing joyable.

Hope the Warm to Last for Long

It becomes warm the past two days. Degree backs to ten and shower drives away the dirt. I came to the place that I hadn’t been to since past two years ago. I met the person whom I really sorry to. And only that day did I know that there was a interview the day before yesterday.
I have never been so anxious for three months. It seemed like I was in this interview, too. Before the interview, someone said that they will know their result immediately, but they still didn’t know the result when they went back to school. It must be a hard time for everyone to wait for the result.
Yesterday we worked together for the New Year Performance. Most of us were recording their words in a small meeting room and we draw the background. It took a long time but we all feel our work valuable because it is the first formal insitution activity for us.
Ten days later, some people will go to Peking to have a test. Best wishes to them!

Two years past, Still there

I didn’t go to the small town until yesterday. A classmate of mine asked me to come to her birthday party and I was very glad to accept. So I took the chance.
Yesterday was a clear early winter day. We came to the school in this town. Leaves covered narrow paths and mild hills. Sun set and the sky turned red. Stream flowed slowly from the hill to the plain.
We walked in the school. I met the people which I had never seen before. I viewed the scenery which is entirely new to me. Then there is a birthday party in class. Everyone enjoy this moment.
Though there are still something making me nervous, I believe the hardest time will soon go. This school will move to another campus. We are all in a little sadness. It is six-year memory for them and six-year missing for me.

First night riding in this road, I saw the different sight, and had different feeling. I wish everything will be alright, today and ten days later.

Back Memory, A Day with Forst

I woke up at six o’clock. When I came out, grass and bushes were covered with white limpid forst. I haven’t seen forst since ten months ago. A cold winter started fiftteen days ago, and now it tells us the coldest period of this year is coming.
I used to deem that someone was really harmful, while I did the same harmful thing. I am sometimes selfish and dark. I only came to the town Hangzhou FL School lied three times in the past six years. I only have two meet during the past six years. I didn’t keep my promise and wrote a letter which did really huge harm. Today, I will go to the west edge of Qiantang, but what should I say, what should I do?
Forst has came, so snow isn’t far away. Six winters comes and pasts, and she is still in the same place. I changed a lot. I am really sorry to her. I will go with my class mates to her school. I can’t predict what will happen.
Time came back to two years ago. If I still can get the chance, I will never give up. Only had suffered such great pain did I realize how much I owe the other persons. I will pay for my selfishness and frailness. In the beginning, I doubted whether what I did is wrong two months ago. Now I know that I am totally wrong.
The forst froze the grass, as well as my heart. I can’t expect any sympathy, I merely want to know how much I can remedy.

Come back to “the bank of West Lake”

Today is my former middle school’s school day. We celebrated the sixty-fifth annual in memory of the day and the people our school be established in and by.
I hadn’t gone back to my middle school since the April of 2011. More than twenty months past, things changed a lot. The campus is just looked like the one I have lived in, and teachers are familiar with me. But students can’t be recognized, they are all new to us.
Old students also came. There are performances in the gym. Everyone who has studied in this school is equal at that moment. We are the same. We are all standing beside the bank of west lake.
Most of our grade are in high school and working hard for the college entrance examination, so I didn’t expect many of us would come. But in the end of the trip, I met a classmate near the school goal. I can’t believe myself. Today is filled with happiness, sadness which had stay two months with me have been drived away. When I open the bag and find a magezine called “the Bank of West Lake”, I seems find a “Tzuyu” existed two years and a half ago. I come back to the school. I come back to two years and a half ago, where my dream start, where a beautiful summer is still there.